It is halfway...in so many ways. Truly, for a 10 month employee, January 31st is 50% day...5 months down and 5 to go...but February break, for a long time, has felt like a halfway point for me. I spent my February break in the most lovely of ways, first visiting family, and celebrating my niece Norah's first birthday. I also had time to go out galavanting and wine touring with my hubby. Then we came home, and "burrowed" as a family. There were outings, to skate and bowl, but overall, there was a lot of reading, and TV (Olympics rule!), and movies, and games, and time together just doing nothing in our jammies. It is what we do. But still, in all of it, I missed my friend, my collaborator in this venture. It seemed that she, for whatever reason, was avoiding me, and I guess you could say that in some ways I distanced myself from her as well. Still today, I had some clarity...through Paul Davis and the song "Sweet Life" from the 70's. I AM living the sweet life (and thank you dear sweet Jesus that she DID get Tim's nose) and as our friends seem to be in a hurry, we ARE taking our time. I, sometimes, get so caught up in other people's issues that I forget that I am JUST FINE. I suppose what I need to recall is that my life is not my friend's life, but that doesn't diminish either of us in any way. I do have a sweet life, and she has the life she has and that is just the way it IS. Still, I don't want us to hide, from eachother, in any way, and I feel like we have been. Who knows, I may be way off base, still, it is only halfway.
-Cheryl
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